Six Weeks Post OP

FROM JINEEN:
So I haven't written since the birth of Lexa...delivery went well with the c-section and it was emotional when Lexa was born for Myla and I because she is a little miracle, but totally a God filled experience. I have had no grief or loss after giving Lexa to her parents. I definitely went into this pregnancy with a totally different mindset than my babies. I knew she wasn't mine or meant to be with me. Still seems weird sometimes when I think I had a baby 6 weeks ago!
I had a few issues with not being on the right floor the first day after surgery so that was a bummer because I didn't get great attention right after delivery...luckily though the next night I got into a suite which was better and on the correct floor for my recovery. Had a few hormonal breakdowns....I realized even though I wasn't missing having a baby-I was missing having something or someone to love on. That was something I didn't expect...I had my husband sleep with me in the bed for awhile which was pretty funny because hospital beds are not very big! We had some friends and family come and visit and my kids got a kick out of seeing Lexa and playing with the hospital bed!:) Anyways...we said goodbye to Anthony and Myla a day early before we left the hospital. They left and went to W. Virginia to visit her family. That was emotional but exciting for them! They finally had their family!
I went home on May 17th and my 35th birthday was May 18th so that was interesting! I was glad to be home though and with my family and my babies! May 19th around 3 or 4 am I had gone to the bathroom and when I layed down I felt major pain just hit me! I sat up and it would not go away-I thought I had to either go to the bathroom or puke-I didn't do either and then for sure thought I was going to pass out! Shane woke up and I knew I had to go to the hospital! I'd never had one but all I kept thinking was it was a kidney stone! Long story short-it was and they said it was probably from pumping and being dehydrated and I had more kidney stones that would hopefully pass! Thank God I didn't have any more pain with that since, but that was worse than labor pain for sure! I thought I was going to die! Next I ended up with a bad cough and was miserable for the next week with that on top of dealing with my incision pain and uterus contracting and pumping for the next week! It was a bit overwhelming! I was able to get an antibiotic and finally began to feel better! My mom stayed with me that week and then I went it alone with my kids being really bored and wishing I was better already!
Since that first two weeks after, life has been a bit crazy-thought we might have to move and now looks like we are staying-but found out my baby sister who is about to have her first baby is moving far away from me-back to our hometown of Buffalo, NY. Yes-very depressing for me! She moves tomorrow! That has been hard and so we did a garage sale and then I threw her a baby shower and was helping her pack! I said I would've never been doing all this 5-6 weeks after having my babies but it's so different when you don't actually have a baby you are dealing with! Life goes on! My body has been overwhelmed and I've had a few emotional breakdowns but I'm getting there! Now my biggest hurdle is losing the weight-I gained more than I ever did with mine and I just want it off now because I have no clothes that fit me! Ugh-not fun...starting to exercise now that I am able and going to start dieting to get back to my normal size! Cannot wait to feel more myself again! It's been a long journey and not always easy but God has written this all into my story for a reason! I'm glad I was able to give a sweet amazing gift to a friend. I'm anxious to see what He has next for me and excited to see and hear about baby Lexa and all of the milestones ahead of her! Oh and Myla said that Lexa gets her fussiness from me but I have to say none of my babies were colicky-so not true!:) Thankful to God for bringing me through all of this and looking forward to the next thing ahead and being back to normal for my babies-they are getting so big so fast! I want to really enjoy every moment and not rush it away!